Glitter and Gold

I love theater arts. Though I am not a normal drama nerd either. Though as time goes on, and I get smarter, and older I realize how scary Hollywood seems.One, acting is not a solid job for me to start off with.Two, It is hard to find a grounded actor or actress. Stupidity can come easily once we get a taste of easy money and easy love. Yes, I actually dared to bring that up. Sorry, but even if I end up having people following this blog, I am not changing these statement for one bit. I use to dream of becoming famous, but now, not so much.

 I think I am very grounded, and know who I am and where I came from, for my age. Though, I don't know all that does on behind the camera. No matter how much I love to preform, I am going to have to be a lot stronger within myself and my savior before I can ever attempt at Hollywood. High school drama programs are looking a whole lot better, when I turn on that television.

We are living in a world where celebrities are being idolized, and being told they need to jump off a cliff for a TV show, movie, or song that a person disliked.  We are in a world where glitter, and impurity and instant gratification, alcohol and money are seeming to be longed for, over God. Yes, another risky topic that is not brought up much. We are also worried about feelings way to much, but that will be another post. Things that should not can be dangerous, dirty and make life troubling are glorified by avoiding the problem.  Jesus is not getting smaller, we are just turning a blind eye and finding that man made items, and things that mask our daily problems will fix us, cure us and make our personal pain smaller.

Most of us are thinking like this, maybe not you specifically, and not I. But most humans out there are, wither you want to believe it or not. Thinking that because celebrities look like they are having fun, I should do all I can to be like them. Remember, we do not see all that they are going through. A lot of the celebrities don't like the paparazzi, and all that comes with fame. Its essentially empty, and God will make our lives full. Not glitter, and not gold, dancing until we drop will not heal heart aches. Idolize celebrities, and you idolize what you portray them as.Something portrayed is easily changed to influence you negatively. It is fake, and work of deception, more than it is real. Living your life in their shadow can only bring pain in the near, or far future.

If you took anything out of this post, take this. There is a god shaped hole in all our hearts. Only God can fill it himself. Nothing man can provide will to that task. No glitter or gold. Just God.

Question's for the heart

Over the course of a year, I feel I have grown in many ways. Spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally. If you had told me a year ago what all I was going to see, I would have laughed in your face. But, just like Kanye West says, what doesn't kill me, will make me stronger. I didn't believe it during the low parts, but it does make me stronger. If only It could make me physically stronger at the same time, then I would be really happy. But no, the only thing I have now is that after taste in my soul. The kind that makes me go over everything one by one, and sigh. Even though the sigh does not help, it feels like it should. So, what I am going to do is post some questions. You don't have to put any thought into them, they are just some that I had to answer on my own.

How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?

Why are bubbles round?

Why does the sun have to some up so early in the spring and summer, but when I have to get up early in the fall, it is very late?

Why do we have to make choices?

Why do we make wrong choices?

When we make those wrong choices, why do we have to live to regret them?

How come forgetting comes easy when I am told to do the dishes, but when it comes to those wrong choices, we can't go a day without remembering it?

Why does our heart, not listen to our head?

How come our heart and head do not get along?

Why do we have to take our own advice?

Would it be easier at times if we didn't?

Why is so easy to slip up?

Why are people annoying?

Why do you want to beat the crap out of those annoying people?

When did life start going in circles? (once and a while)

Why does my heart have to be protected now, because of my head and it screwing up so much?

Why does life seem so pleasant now that my head took over?

Why do I over think things?

Is it for the better?